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I get aggravated a lot. I am jealous! I am bitter! I am always right, but people don't realise it most of the time, which makes them believe I'm wrong, which makes them incorrect!

Twitter is a distraction that probably has far more negatives than positives, I read things that grate on me beyond belief, and when it comes from people I like, it grates even more. Usually it is an opinion. An opinion that differs from mine. Apparently opinions can neither be wrong nor right. I find this curious as my opinions often appear to be universally right and other people's opinions, not so much!

A Twix advert just came on TV. Haven't seen one for a while. Come to think of it. Haven't had a Twix in years. Shame, I quite like them! Haven't had a Rocky bar in years either. I need to diversify my chocolate snacks from time to time.

It's annoying when people become anonymous because you get fixated on only one thing. That needn't happen. These thoughts are scattered and fragmented, I don't know how to coherently air them. And I don't want to sugar-coat them. I can't specify events, there are many, people, incidents, comments, irritants. These escalate. Insignificant they may be, but I want to exhale.

My brain fart is a big old blog mess. Not that anything is preying heavily on my mind. On the contrary, I feel pretty good in general, other than those moments when things are quiet in my head and I think about the reality of me and fear and feel as low as one can feel. Those moments are fleeting. Were they to become frequent and lengthily, I think I'd have a massive problem on my hands that I don't believe I could deal with.

Nothing more is springing to mind at the moment. I'm getting very tired.

How are you?

Blog #123

I think we're all guilty of taking things a little too seriously at time. I certainly am, and so I am in no position to criticize. But usually stubbornness is what drags things on, situations that needn't be situations at all.

sigh

It's been a little while since I've depressed you all. I'm gonna try and keep it short.

Just now I realised how little friends I have now. I have John and Dale, who talk to me regularly, but when they're not about and I wanna talk, I kinda have limited options. I kinda feel like my friends numbers have halved over the past few months, Just feel sad, tried calling someone but no answer, options kinda end there. It's not nice to have nobody to turn to when you feel low, I'm aware that I make a rod for my own back sometimes but I dunno.

Some forgotton phone memories

I Never use the camera on my phone, primarily because it's old and shit and only takes vga images. But I finally figured out how to move the photos I have taken and received, from my phone to my computer via my Bluetooth dongle that I've had for a couple of years. So I thought I'd upload what was on there to this blog. Most of them are just shots out and about, some I remember, some I don't. I remember, the photos with the lads, the few I took on the ferry on the way to see Tom in Southampton. I remember the marmite rice cakes was part of a text to Lex and I remember receiving the photo of Jemma and Sophie from John in September 08 in says on my phone. Some I don't remember, like why I've taken a photo of me and Darren, obviously off the computer screen. The image is so blurry, it looks either like an image a stalker might have or an image of two guys who went missing in 1981 and are presumed dead. I also don't remember why I took a photo of my face needlessly close. I presume I was bored.

New beginnings

I started a new channel called MrShowbizName because everyone else has one and I wanna be cool like them. Actually I started it for several reasons. Firstly, the MyShowbizName channel is stale. Nobody cares much about it. It doesn't matter what I do, nobody really cares. The new channel just is a little more exciting for me, starting a fresh and gives me a little more drive to use it more.

Secondly and the main reason I started a second channel is because I feel quite restricted on the other channel, I feel I have to try and be funny and so if there are vlogs I want to make about certain subjects, I don't feel able to put them on that channel. With the new channel, I intend to make vlogs more frequently and not worry too much as to whether it's good enough or not. Hopefully people will still find me watchable. Just read that back, most people don't find me watchable anyway, but the ones who do watch my videos, I hope they can still get something from the new channel.

This is my first video on the new channel about Celebrity Politics.

This man I know

I talked to a man today. He is part of what's right in the world. Intelligent, driven, creative, enthusiastic, optimistic, kind, encouraging and lots more besides. Everything I see and hear from him is almost entirely positive, In fact, it probably is entirely positive. If I were half as good as he is, I would be pretty happy.

He also thought I shouldn't be cryptic in blog posts.