Some ranting about some stuff

Firstly. Everyone on my google reader are shit at writing blogs. There's never anything to read anymore. All we get now are images of dogs wearing hats and such that people deem worthy of tumblr and someone else liked it and they linked to it, then there are a nest of names that mean fuck all to me, the end. Sort it out people.

I just allowed myself for the first time in months to check up on someone I've had to cut out for my own sake. And I thought I'd feel utter shit as usual. But I didn't! I felt fine, I guess that's progress. It's sad how things work out, but I have no control over it, I took measures to protect myself for once and it feels great not to have those emotions eating away at me any longer. It's good!

Next up - Holly Willoughby. What the fucking fuck is going on at ITV? Who the hell is that bird fucking to be plastered all over the tele on every fucking programme in existence across their network? I think it's Phillip Schofield personally. But what has she got going for her? She's not pretty. She might have a decent body but she has a square face with rounded features, none of which are attractive. She looks like Kim Clijsters FFS. But you know what? I'm being shallow! Personality goes a long way! Remember the pig? Wait a cotton pickin second, she has zero personality, no charisma and all the humour of a brick. So, let me recap. The girl isn't much to look at, has nothing personality wise, but yet hosts just about everything on ITV1 and ITV2? Seriously, she's either shagging somebody or she's got dirty secrets on higher ups.

The other day on twitter, I posted this tweet 'Retweet this message', and like 25 people did it. Fuck knows why, it was meaningless, however when I actually put together a video, one that I am rather proud of by the way, it's a struggle to get anybody to retweet. And to tell you the truth, I don't want to upload a video and then spend 3 days spamming the fuck out of it on twitter hoping someone may bother watching and commenting on it. I'd far rather let that all happen on it's own. But youtube doesn't work that way any longer. The tightness we used to have as a group where we would all support each others videos, by commenting, rating and often featuring on our own channels have long gone, it's a shame! And yes, I am aware that it's more of a shame for me than it is for PJ or Dave because I have more to gain from being on their page than they do mine. However, it wasn't about wanting to sub whore back then, it was just about giving kudos to a person you actually thought made a good video that deserved to be seen. Benjy left a message on my video saying how he'd featured it on his page and it just reminded me of the old times where people seemed to care about what other people were doing. I'm certainly not blameless in this, I too am guilty of not commenting when perhaps I should, I found things to say in the past, so I should be able to today. And yes, this is triggered by a disappointment of a video I actually am proud of, struggling to get any views. But not solely. I think the decline in youtube has been apparent for a long while and it's just occasions like this that remind me of when it was imersive and close.

Secondly, I wrote several videos lately. One had Me and Crabstickz in it, one had just me. I may be lacking in modesty here, but I think both were funny. I actually prefer the Africare one. However, the success or lack of success of the videos is evident. So, I just find it irksome that it takes a youtuber with many thousands of subscribers to get people to watch the things and actually give a fuck. I don't understand why this is, I honestly don't! I have over a thousand subscribers but barely manage 300 views. So 700 of you should fuck off, go away! Youtube has taken the ability for me to unsubscribe people from my channel away, because otherwise, I'd of had a cull a few months ago. This was a primary reason I left youtube before, it's like, I don't know what I can do, to make people watch, and yes it matters. It validates the effort I put in, the more people watch it.

If you, are in a video with a large youtuber, you are seen as whoring subs, however the top echelon of youtubers sub whore among themselves anyway and they don't even need to, They all have subscribe to lists full of people who have already gotten somewhere on youtube. And an argument you often hear is that "these are my friends". To that, I would just say, isn't it coincidental that all the people with a certain large fan base are great friends with other people with a certain large fan base. I'm not saying the friendships are not genuine, however, I'd be surprised if they started their friendships under genuine circumstances. I could pull out a good example on a page of one of my own friends, but I don't really wish to rock the boat too close to home. I can't be arsed. This isn't what the blog is intended for and I have no interest in the drama anymore. These are just honest observations that I believe to be true.

Obviously, there are other reasons for the lack of interest in user generated content. Primarily the daily feature that once spurred people on to make a video worthy of being featured has long gone and the incentive to care has been taken away, and with that, the carrot of a little success has diminished. The TV companies have moved in also. But still, I think it's a shame that the core support we had amongst ourselves has diminished along with it.

I have a new video. I'm very proud of it. I think it's one of the best videos I have made on youtube. I'm glad people appear to be finding it funny rather than offensive. The danger was always how seriously people would take the apparent trivializing of famine and poverty, but I think everybody got that it was not about that, it was about the thousands of "charities" that apparently work doing the same thing and feel the need to beg for money, a lot of which goes in their own pocket.

If you read this blog and you haven't seen it, or commented on it, then please do.