My phone is empty

I think recently I have tried to reign the crazy in. The problems I have with people are still there, but in the past there would usually be a argument of sorts. I'm choosing now to let go. The things people do or sometimes don't do still cause me pain, but I've drawn a conclusion lately that maybe I was naive in thinking that certain people were my friend rather than just an acquaintance. In the past, I have never had problems deciphering who's who, but I think because of the sheer numbers of people you meet through youtube, stickam, twitter etc. you start to think you're more popular than you are. There are so many that almost treat it as a competition, collecting new acquaintances like football cards, it's about numbers. These people probably have no idea who is really their friend and who isn't, and that's fine! Some people like to live with swarms of friends that are all at arms length. However I'm not that sort of person and I think I need to wise up. I think I felt I had made six or seven proper friends over the past couple of years. But just recently, with events and such, I've realised that at best it's probably just two.

I'm not in it to collect new names in my phonebook. I was looking at my phone last night and thought, probably only 2 or 3 people ever text me off their own backs, sure, others may reply were I to text them or maybe I might be included in a large round robin text but I thought, what is the need for me to have these people in my phonebook? other than so I can feel more popular than I am? I like everybody in my phonebook and probably one or two like me back, but it's not enough for me. It's time to wipe the excess and stick with the very small number who actually want to talk to me.

So, as of just now, I've wiped my phone blank, any contacts I may gain will be as a result of people wanting to initiate conversation with me. There's no other reason for you to be in my book. On a final note. I wish I were able to make new friends and discard the old ones like some people are able to do. Oh wait. Actually I don't, so that wont be happening.

Update: decided to do the same with skype. No reason to have 40 people I don't speak to on my list. Ball is no longer in my court, I like that.