Few days of meh

I felt really down a couple of days ago. Everything was annoying me. I ended up texting someone who was also feeling down. I ended up trying my best to make them feel better about themselves and talk through how they were feeling. I'm happy to do that with anybody I know. Sometimes I wish people would do that for me though. It feels like I'm going back over old ground and I guess you can't expect things from people.

I do think I'm a considerate person. I try to text people for no other reason but to see how they are or to tell them I'm thinking of them. I guess some people are not considerate and it doesn't mean they don't care. But still, It's nice to feel that somebody cares. I've taken now to just holding people at arms length. I want to talk to them but I wont put myself in a position where I'm the person always starting conversations, asking if somebody wants to skype. Instead I'll wait and if they don't come to me, I guess I'll know how one sided friendships can be.

Unfortunately over the past few months, a few of my friendships feel weakened. I've tried to hold on and it actually affects me far too much. So this new policy of just forgetting is good for me.

That's all.