A speaker fell on my foot

It hurt very badly.

I haven't blogged for ages. I can't think of anything really to blog about now, I just felt I should and I wanted to.

I guess I feel quite contented at the moment, not massively happy or unhappy. As are well documented in previous blog entries, I have had issues with friends quite a lot, to some extent that has dissipated, certainly the feeling isn't so intense. A lot of that feeling was paranoia. Unfortunately these incidents are not without damage, to use some sort of analogy, I would compare it to breaking a bone in your leg, it heals, perhaps stronger than before allowing you to do everything you could do before, however in your mind, you worry it could snap again and always feel you have to hold back.

Certain friendships are repaired but don't feel natural anymore. I wonder if maybe that will just take time. I think when contact is no longer regular, you can't feel the relationship is as strong. Particularly online, days without contact can lead to questions being asked. But moving on from this, I'm not upset about anything, just, I say blog and my mind turns to this, there's no real issues bothering me at the moment. I'm just choosing to let people come to me now if they still want to. Hopefully the ones I want to will.

I guess the changing weather may be the reason for my illness this week. Do you know, at no point did I believe it was swine flu. I don't think I'm cool enough to get that disease. But it is depressing to think that summer has gone now and within the next month to six weeks, it'll be freezing cold, dark all the bloody time and everyone will be even more miserable than they already are. I'm not anti winter, it just drags on for far too long. I don't mind the cold weather, it's more the lack of light that gets me down. The greatest part of spring/summer is the light evenings sometimes as late as 10pm. It makes the whole place seem a much warmer, friendlier place to be.

blog done

SIX PEE!