An early morning blog

I woke up at 6:30 this morning because I fell asleep very early last night. I think the stresses of friendships I have and friendships I feel are slipping away have drained me, I felt like I'd been beaten up yesterday and needed the sleep obviously.

My battery is very low so I've not got very long to write this, I'm not even sure what I'm going to say. I'm having difficulty with one friendship over the last 4 or 5 weeks and I don't want to make it obvious here because I don't want to share the ins and outs with everybody, I think it could be improved with talking however they don't appear to want to talk with me, They don't answer any of my phone calls, they seem to try as best they can having any form of spoken conversation with me opting instead for aggravated and frustrated IM conversations. I think the problem is bigger than they are letting on and it feels very much like the end of a friendship when one person isn't interested anymore in being friends and it's harsh and really horrible to deal with.

I can't force people to want to be my friend, I don't think I'm any different to the person I was when they seemed to like being my friend so I can only guess that it's a matter of somebody finding someone or some people and deciding they are better than their old friends and so cutting ties and moving on. Personally I've never been one for this and I find it unexplainable how people can do it.

I should imagine the person this blog is intended for knows it and I would just say to them that if this isn't the case then tell me, talk to me. Because as long as you keep distance then of course me and other people will assume things. Only you know the real story but we've been friends for quite a long time, I don't understand what has changed (or maybe I do) but something definitely has changed, shall we fix it?