I'm not happy at the moment, I don't particularly know why but I think just some of my old insecurities resurfacing, some of my 'paranoia' as some might say about friends and such, just a feeling of still not fitting in. I wont go in to a great amount of detail because I don't really want to single people out and probably in written text, my problems sound stupid, but not quite feeling like you are a part of people's inner circle just runs around my head sometimes and after a year I still wonder why either I'm not accepted or I don't feel accepted, I personally feel the former applies.
There was a hell of a lot more that I was thinking about but it's temporarily slipped my mind, none of it's good though.
Happy pills anyone?
Monday, 24 November 2008
Friday, 21 November 2008
Who's Tom?
To the best of my knowledge I know one person called Tom on a familar basis. He tells me, it's not him who commented of my last blog, so who could it be?
I'm guessing we know eachother based on the 'I'll be the guest' comment. But clicking on his link got me no closer to understanding his identity.
Let me know would you, I'm curious.
I'm guessing we know eachother based on the 'I'll be the guest' comment. But clicking on his link got me no closer to understanding his identity.
Let me know would you, I'm curious.
Thursday, 20 November 2008
Podcasting
OOoooh I have 3 followers on Blogger, but what does that mean? I'm sure it's not very impressive either way.
Well, it's been some time since my last blog, this is due to several reasons. Firstly, anytime I thought of something to possibly write about, I couldn't get the drive to sit down and type for a sustained period of time, secondly, I just haven't had many ideas, I was going to blog a couple of weeks ago about Southampton, but I did a video instead and thought it'd be overkill, plus, saved me typing, but I had a nice day and in some ways wish I hadn't gone because now I've met my friends finally, I want to hang out with them properly, and that's unlikely to happen, when I think of it that way, it gets me down :(
Anyway, the point of this blog was to talk about podcasting, mainly because yesterday morning I was talking to Dale about how I wanted to make a podcast and then this morning I read Dave's blog and see that he's been thinking along the same lines and that's reignited my interest.
My first thoughts were that, we could collaborate, but after reading further on, I thought maybe he might want to make the podcast more specialised and I might not fit in to that. We'll see, i'll have a chat with him, when he wakes up, I tried phoning but 11:30, I assume he's still asleep. I thought we could collaborate for several reasons. Firstly, I too was thinking about having music in my podcast, in the past people have told me not to bother with music in podcasts because people just skip the songs, but personally I prefer some variety, however long of just talking puts a lot of pressure on to actually make every bit of it entertaining, music breaks up the recording nicely.
The second reason I thought about a collaborative effort was simply because I think too many podcasts coming out at the same time can just flood the market and people are easily bored, I seem to remember a podcast boom some 7-8 months ago and I think people lost interest. However I'm still on the fence as to whether it's worth the effort, Firstly, myself, Dave and others may be looking to podcast on another project pretty soon and having my own podcast may be pointless.
So at the moment I'm undecided, I've been thinking sporadically for over a year about making a podcast. It's a large part of the reason I bought my Samson CO3U microphone, which would sound great quality wise, I actually have the set up to make a decent podcast now but I need to think very carefully as to what the format would be and ultimately whether there is an audience for me. I only have 550 odd subscribers, so it certainly wouldn't be massive. But people have always said on the rare occassions I've been on stickam, that I should do radio, so I may give it a go. I might possibly make some test podcasts not to upload and see what some friends think of them and whether it's worth me making it a regular thing.
Seeing as people rarely comment my blog, it's probably not worth asking, but opinions would be greatly appreciated.
Well, it's been some time since my last blog, this is due to several reasons. Firstly, anytime I thought of something to possibly write about, I couldn't get the drive to sit down and type for a sustained period of time, secondly, I just haven't had many ideas, I was going to blog a couple of weeks ago about Southampton, but I did a video instead and thought it'd be overkill, plus, saved me typing, but I had a nice day and in some ways wish I hadn't gone because now I've met my friends finally, I want to hang out with them properly, and that's unlikely to happen, when I think of it that way, it gets me down :(
Anyway, the point of this blog was to talk about podcasting, mainly because yesterday morning I was talking to Dale about how I wanted to make a podcast and then this morning I read Dave's blog and see that he's been thinking along the same lines and that's reignited my interest.
My first thoughts were that, we could collaborate, but after reading further on, I thought maybe he might want to make the podcast more specialised and I might not fit in to that. We'll see, i'll have a chat with him, when he wakes up, I tried phoning but 11:30, I assume he's still asleep. I thought we could collaborate for several reasons. Firstly, I too was thinking about having music in my podcast, in the past people have told me not to bother with music in podcasts because people just skip the songs, but personally I prefer some variety, however long of just talking puts a lot of pressure on to actually make every bit of it entertaining, music breaks up the recording nicely.
The second reason I thought about a collaborative effort was simply because I think too many podcasts coming out at the same time can just flood the market and people are easily bored, I seem to remember a podcast boom some 7-8 months ago and I think people lost interest. However I'm still on the fence as to whether it's worth the effort, Firstly, myself, Dave and others may be looking to podcast on another project pretty soon and having my own podcast may be pointless.
So at the moment I'm undecided, I've been thinking sporadically for over a year about making a podcast. It's a large part of the reason I bought my Samson CO3U microphone, which would sound great quality wise, I actually have the set up to make a decent podcast now but I need to think very carefully as to what the format would be and ultimately whether there is an audience for me. I only have 550 odd subscribers, so it certainly wouldn't be massive. But people have always said on the rare occassions I've been on stickam, that I should do radio, so I may give it a go. I might possibly make some test podcasts not to upload and see what some friends think of them and whether it's worth me making it a regular thing.
Seeing as people rarely comment my blog, it's probably not worth asking, but opinions would be greatly appreciated.
Wednesday, 5 November 2008
Obama
Four years ago, I held out hope John Kerry would take the White House, I stayed up through the night once more to see the results unfold in the American Presidential Election, only this time I had a stronger belief that it might have a happy and historic ending.
I was surprised that so many other friends also stayed up to watch the result as previously, politics have never been of mutual interest, however with this man Barack Obama, he has transcended politically minded people and engaged people apathetic towards politics, people who wouldn't normally follow events and he has instilled a belief amongst the masses that things could actually change. He should thank George W Bush for being such an awful president that America has put aside it's cultural bigotry and elected the best man for the job. I worry, like so many, that some right wing nutcase will take a shot at this person threatening real change, it's happened in the past. When Robert Kennedy threatened to challenge the countries deeply entrenched beliefs and prejudices, he never quite made it into power. I pray that this time, it's different, that now, he is given the chance to change how the world sees the United States of America and to restore some pride to American people.
His acceptance speech was engaging, uplifting and powerful, he spoke with intelligence, eloquence and dignity, he reached out to everybody in the Country and whether he knows it or not, he reached out to the world.
Yes, it has surprised me, the level of interest my friends had for world politics last night. And now I hope that this inspiring man can be given the chance to lead this hugely powerful nation out of the troubles it has faced in this new millennium and to restore some pride it has lost since September 11th 2001.
How important might the 4th November 2008 be in history I wonder?
I was surprised that so many other friends also stayed up to watch the result as previously, politics have never been of mutual interest, however with this man Barack Obama, he has transcended politically minded people and engaged people apathetic towards politics, people who wouldn't normally follow events and he has instilled a belief amongst the masses that things could actually change. He should thank George W Bush for being such an awful president that America has put aside it's cultural bigotry and elected the best man for the job. I worry, like so many, that some right wing nutcase will take a shot at this person threatening real change, it's happened in the past. When Robert Kennedy threatened to challenge the countries deeply entrenched beliefs and prejudices, he never quite made it into power. I pray that this time, it's different, that now, he is given the chance to change how the world sees the United States of America and to restore some pride to American people.
His acceptance speech was engaging, uplifting and powerful, he spoke with intelligence, eloquence and dignity, he reached out to everybody in the Country and whether he knows it or not, he reached out to the world.
Yes, it has surprised me, the level of interest my friends had for world politics last night. And now I hope that this inspiring man can be given the chance to lead this hugely powerful nation out of the troubles it has faced in this new millennium and to restore some pride it has lost since September 11th 2001.
How important might the 4th November 2008 be in history I wonder?
Saturday, 1 November 2008
5:51am
I went to sleep about 1am last night and was awoken by my phone ringing at 4:45am, I couldn't understand what prick would wake me up at such an ungodly hour. Then I recieved an answerphone message from Ginger Chris who was ever so slightly inebriated. He left a great message and I intended to record it to my computer, however in the dark, instead of clicking the hang up button, I pressed the 3 button instead which deleted the message :(
So, I went online to see what Chris wanted, but he wasn't online. Pav was, we spoke briefly before I phoned Chris only to get an answerphone which I left an equally long message as he had with me. I later found out that he was engaged in conversation with his middle aged stalker at that time, which is why I couldn't get through. We talked for about 40 minutes as he walked the streets of Glasgow dressed as an urban Thundercat, in this time, he bought some chips, pissed in public and came ever some close to a fox, which he enjoyed immensely, though he never got it's number.
I like Chris nay I love him, but for future reference, text me, if I reply then call. Now I've been up for an hour and a quarter and am on my second cup of coffee and I'm listening to Only By The Night, I shall retreat to my bed in a little while and attempt to get back to sleep for a few hours, I doubt I'll manage, so I shall crash in the middle of Saturday I should think.
Right-O, I canny be arsed to write any more nor do I have any more to write about so I'll wrap it up here.
Night x
So, I went online to see what Chris wanted, but he wasn't online. Pav was, we spoke briefly before I phoned Chris only to get an answerphone which I left an equally long message as he had with me. I later found out that he was engaged in conversation with his middle aged stalker at that time, which is why I couldn't get through. We talked for about 40 minutes as he walked the streets of Glasgow dressed as an urban Thundercat, in this time, he bought some chips, pissed in public and came ever some close to a fox, which he enjoyed immensely, though he never got it's number.
I like Chris nay I love him, but for future reference, text me, if I reply then call. Now I've been up for an hour and a quarter and am on my second cup of coffee and I'm listening to Only By The Night, I shall retreat to my bed in a little while and attempt to get back to sleep for a few hours, I doubt I'll manage, so I shall crash in the middle of Saturday I should think.
Right-O, I canny be arsed to write any more nor do I have any more to write about so I'll wrap it up here.
Night x
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