It's 7:01 as I write this and I haven't been able to sleep all night. I've just had a coffee and I'm wide awake. I might wrap the christmas presents in a bit because I'm just that prepared.
Regarding my last post, it will always be a recurring issue with me I think, and while many of the friends I have who read this blog will see it as me going off on one again, I would have appreciated more in the way of support be it a comment on the blog post, or just an email or phone call. I don't know whether people think it's best that I be left alone when I'm in that mood or whether they just don't care enough to get in contact with me.
I think I'm always going to feel left out with my social limitations and it's not easy seeing everybody forming close friendships as I get stuck with my own company and ultimately my own self pity, I guess I look for some extra care and attention online as I don't get to see you in the flesh, and I really enjoyed actually meeting you.
I don't really talk about my actual real life in this blog because I find it pretty embarrassing how little there is to tell. I've touched on the social anxiety a few times on this blog but most of you wont know how much it's actually held me back my adult life. I'm still not going to go into huge detail however I will say that 2008 has been hopefully my transistional year and I'm hoping for so much more in 2009. I can tell you that my outlook has started to brighten and my anxiety levels have dropped gradually this year and I'm starting to do things I would never have dreamed of taking on and I hope so much that nothing changes on that front.
At the risk of sounding wet, there are a select few who mean a great deal to me who I've met through youtube and stickam and as Christmas approaches I want to thank you all for putting up with me and being my friend because after 2007, I desperately needed some friends xx
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