It's Christmas Day now, it's 3:44 and the events of the past two days have really ruined this Christmas for me. Today of all days should be a happy one and while I admit that my moods are easily affected, this has come at a rather rotten time and now I just have negativity and paranoia running through my thoughts. For the record, The choices you made today rather hurt because our friendship has run longer and I thought stronger.
Christmas hasn't been exciting for many years but at least it's a time for family and usually friendship, unfortunately that has weakened at the worst possible time, I will try to focus today on my family who truly care about me and wont ever let me down.
So today will be routine, crappy gifts, gluttony and falling asleep in the afternoon, and when the day is over it'll be deflating, I hate new years, I'm always on my own for it, have been for the past 10 years, to be honest before now, there hadn't been anyone for me to celebrate it with nor has there ever been anything to celebrate, and again this year while others are enjoying themselves at new years parties, I'll be reflecting again on a year of progress but of ultimate failure and disappointment. It's probably best that I'll be alone.
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We've told you Dom to come to Dave's for new years. You can't moan about being alone when you've been invited. Just come, shall be mega lulz.
Don't look at the year as a failure Dom.
You went to SouthHampton and hung out with friends you'd never properly met before,You said it was the first time you'd left the island in 8 years was it? I think that's a fair fucking accomplishment.
That was a hell of a start in fairness,maybe 2009'll be a year for change,a year's a long time,alot can happen, next new year's could be totally different.
Oh and also you met me.That's fairly life changing :P
I'm getting that headset today:) Talk soon xx
I know how you feel about new years. I'll be spending mine alone too.
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